Can’t Find The Beat.

This is really beginning to irritate me. I’ve got the rough re-plot of 2 BEAT SIDEWAYS done. I know the character arcs, I’m happy with the pacing and all the remains to do is write the pitch. I just can’t seem to get it to hang right. There’s no punch to the opening, and I can’t hit the right notes – I think I’m going to have to cut a key element out. It’s too big to make it just one part of a larger story, and trying to play it down just doesn’t sit right. But if I lose it, the first couple of issues fall over and die. Shit.

Tonight I shall hit my brain with coffee and whiskey, and see where it gets me.

Wish List Woes.

So, the damn thing doesn’t want to work. I’ll fix it later in the day, but for now, thanks to Fiona who pointed out that it wasn’t working right. So, instead of buying me gifts, you lot can send her your finest meats and cheeses (or if it’s easier, just buy something from her wish list) instead.

I Wish I Knew How I Worked.

Some nights, I have to force myself to do anything useful. It’s not that I’m lacking in energy or ideas, even on a bad day, just discipline – a combination of bad time management and laziness means I get next to fuck all done.

Other nights, like tonight, I’m exactly the reverse. Tonight, I have been out socialising, come home, gone to the gym, come home again, tightened the dialogue on SIX STRINGS, written the character description I promised Natalie a few weeks back for 2 BEATS SIDEWAYS, worked on the sci-fi idea that occured to me the other week, put a bit more meat on the bones of the plot I have, and jotted down some notes about a mad idea I had on the bus the other day. Oh, and I read two volumes of RISING STARS, too, and will probably crack open something else to read before I sleep.

If I could figure out how I worked, every night would be like tonight.

Shamanism.

One of my major interests, this. The more I study occult theory and weird fringe philosophy, the more it all just leads back to the seriously primal stuff. Sometimes my studies lead to a refinement of understanding as to why this stuff works, sometimes it’s just interesting to see the lengths people will go to to achieve the same thing while looking educated and refined.

But I digress: there’s a nice article on Shamanism just gone up on Barbelith. The article is a sequel to this one (which also has a rather good reading list for anyone interested in learning more) and I recommend them to anyone interested in an quick overview of this practice.

Satori.

A state of enlightenment sought in Zen meditation. A glimpse into essential truths about oneself, one’s relationship with the universe and the nature of everything. A moment of enlightenment, of perfect understanding and perfect comprehension.

In my experience, the big problem with satori is that it’s awfully hard to tell apart from mad bollocks.

Tom Waits New Albums.

I was delighted when I heard that he was putting out a new album. I was overjoyed when I heard that in fact it was not one, but two albums. I am slavering with anticipation now, because I have just downloaded the same tracks available at this site, and I really can’t wait for May 7th.

I am getting deeply, deeply frustrated with PHP.

So, I’m trying to get PHP to sort the order it displays some infomration in based on the last modified time of the files containing the info. It isn’t working. I’ve got PHP telling me that it knows what I’m walking about when I ask it to display the values in the array, and the keys associated with said values. The values are what I want to display, the keys are the timestamps for the lastmod dates of the files. It knows that the values are strings and the keys are integers.

So, why does ksort(arrayname) not work? If anyone out there is a PHP genius, and can give me an idea where I’m going wrong, please, please, please drop me a line.